Phonecall
〜Yae side〜
Because Kazu-kun went to have lunch with Oohashi-kun today, I’m eating at home alone. Kazu-kun made fried rice for me ahead of time before he left the house. It’s as delicious as always, but I’m a wee bit dissatisfied that he left me behind and went to play.
The two of them playing is something that often happened after all; even though I wasn’t bothered by it previously. I wonder if this is also because I became self-aware that I like Kazu-kun? But it’s written on the internet that a clingy girlfriend is easily disliked, so I’ve got to tread carefully.
“Thanks for the meal”
It suddenly occurred to me when I soaked the dishes and whatnot in water. I wonder if I can spend more time with Kazu-kun if I become capable of doing chores. I think it’ll finish quicker doing it with 2 people than with 1 person after all.
“Chores……”
The problem is the fact that my chores ability is in the negative. I tried to do it when I was a middle school student, but it was no good at all. I might end up causing more trouble instead if I help out……
“What should I do……”
A ringtone came from my smartphone as I was brooding. The other party was Mutsumi. What’s the matter?
“Hello?”
“Ah, Yae-chan. Do you have time now?”
“Un”
“Let’s talk for a bit thenー”
“Sure”
I move to the sofa with the smartphone on my ear. I hug a cushion and lower my hips.
“So what’s the matter?”
“Renya-kun and Oohata-kun have gone for a meal today, right? That’s why I thought I’d like to take this chance to ask if Yae-chan made any progress”
“I see. But there’s no particular progress, you know?”
“Is that soー”
It’s been more or less a week since I was told by Mutsumi that I like Kazu-kun. Although my heart pounded strangely so for a few days, it calmed down after I realised that nothing had changed.
“In the first place, Yae-chan is ahead of me after all”
“Am I?”
“Yeah. I mean, you’re being lovey-dovey every day even when you say there’s no progress, right”
“There’s no……no such things though”
“As I thought. It must be nice huhh”
I wasn’t conscious of it, but there were also things that fellow lovers do in the interactions between Kazu-kun and me. I’d previously thought it was okay since we’re a family, but it’s different now. But, as I thought, it’s blissful to do such things with the person I like, so I can’t stop.
Besides, even if I perform the skinship, Kazu-kun doesn’t think anything strange of it, so I can do it without holding back. The only frustration on the other hand is the part where I can’t have him notice my feelings though.
“But I get it too. The feeling Mutsumi has of being unable to confess to Oohashi-kun”
“You get it?”
“Un. It’s indeed difficult”
The truth is, during this one week, I attempted several times to convey my feelings. But it ended with me being unable to say it in the end.
“Although there’s also being afraid of being rejected, I’m plenty satisfied even with the current situation after all”
“Ahー, as I thought, a position like Yae-chan’s sure makes one jealousー!”
I’m able to do tons of things that ordinary people would only do after becoming lovers as well. As expected, kissing is impossible, but if it’s just a hug, he’ll do it to me normally.
I couldn’t quite say it out when I think about it like that. It’s also partially because I don’t have the confidence of being able to live together after getting rejected. That’s why I decided to keep these feelings hidden like this for a bit.
“It’s fine, you can easily take a man down if you hug and whisper words of love to them”
“Yae-chan is somehow saying things like that of a devilish woman, but your situation isn’t different from mine, right?”
“Mutsumi’s breasts mesmerise men and women alike”
“You’re saying something like that again!”
In the end, Kazu-kun came back as we continued with this pointless conversation even after this. Both of us were surprised that more time had passed than we’d thought, and we ended the call in a hurry. And then, leaving my smartphone on the sofa, I leapt onto Kazu-kun who had just removed his shoes at the main entrance.
“Yae!?”
“I somehow felt like doing it”
“……got it”
Although Kazu-kun was surprised as well because I hugged him suddenly, he gently wrapped his hands around my back like he was saying, ‘it can’t be helped’. I’m feeling Kazu-kun’s existence with my entire body.
As I thought, it’s fine to be like this for a bit more. But, one day……just kidding.
